Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i think im getting myself into some sort of trouble. oh dear. why a sudden feel for him? am i feeling this way to withdraw pain from the other end? well, it's kinda good at 1 side yet unfair, i would say, for the other. at the moment, it's all in my mind, until a day when someone wish to appreciate and learn more abt my feelings.
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
indeed was a long day. struggling a lil to keep my eyes wide open during the dry counselling lectures. and sure, i do realised that my opinions and thinkings nowadays differ alot from dip days. it's definately due to the 2 yrs of clinical experience.
anyway, today feels a lil different. i woke up, no longer feeling as "depressed" as before. a lil warmth, a lighter feeling. i've no idea what has brought about that kinda feeling. but i hope tt will be how i feel everyday.
get to know this song from my sister, although e storyline differ from mine, but tt's how i felt.
i believe i will be able to let go of you soon!
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
finally get to warm my bed till 12noon! =) pampered my lil gal today. spent $45 for a full professional grooming! she looks so small and much neater right now!
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Monday, October 26, 2009
it's the start of the second week of school. gd news because we dont hav to go to school tmr- no lesson! =) weekend was burnt because of the revising. i was overly anxious i guess. waking up at 8am to read thru notes all the way till 12midnight. everyone thought i was having examination. tt's simply called - kiasu, kiasi!
finished lesson early today. well not very early but considered earliest, 4pm. after much persuasion and brainwashing by aiying, decided to let myself a day off and hang out, shopping, dinner for the rest of the evening. and yes, it was a rewarding and enjoyable one.
it maximized again today. i wonder how can one let go of the past so easily. it's just so incredibly fast. this has affected me to the highest level. =(
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Sunday, October 25, 2009
1st week of sch is over. it's not easy. every 1st week of school supposed to be the intro week- most enjoyable, most relaxing, blah blah .. but apparently it's not! well well, how else can a 8 months compact course be? time for a break, away from work? yes.. but definitely cnt escape this friend, called stress ; much more stressful than working life! (working life has minimal stress lor!) to date, from what i understand, it seems we have 3 to 4 1000 to 3000 words essays to write. its totally crazy! projects, research, essays, exams - that's what the introduction was all about!
im beginning to buried myself under tons of "books"; or rather, heavy load of stress ! because im a perfectionist. i want to strive for the best. a very good way to divert my sorrows too. i hope my hard work will eventually pay off.
my grp leader, co-leader and treasurer are superb! it's not easy to hold such high responsibility role, in addition to the given amount of stress and time constrains. they are absolutely cool and very commendable ppl~ =)
probably something to laugh at, im still struggling to read n understand my timetable! omg! how amazing.. not that im away frm sch for long, just that it's really confusing i swear!
im sorry if i disappoint you guys with my last min withdrawal to the "gathering/meeting/visit" (whatever it's called). stress over rides me. =p
sch was kinda like a diversional therapy. but at particular time of the day, it will start to linger around the corner of my mind. like on desktop. the programme could be minimized, and at times, it will maximized. i wish i could delete that programme, and have a "anti-virus" protection against it. but at the same time, i couldnt bear deleting it. sigh! should go for IT course soon.
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
i'm hating my life.. i need to ventilate. but i really dono how. =( i've never never felt such pain. it's really hurtful. =,(
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